Monday, October 23, 2006

I Hate Mondays

I'm starting to hate Mondays. There is nothing inherently wrong with the day I suppose, but for me Monday is a down day. Usually I spend the weekend enjoying Ben's company and doing things that we both enjoy and then I wake up on Monday morning and I am alone. I really noticed it this morning when I woke up about 6:30, and rolled over to cuddle but there was no one there to cuddle with but the dog. I really need to find a job that will allow us to be together and eliminate the extensive and exspensive driving back and forth. The job market in Michigan is extremely depressed and the prospects aren't great. But I believe that God is greater than the economy and that the right job will come along at the right time. We just keep hoping that the right time will come soon. In the meantime, the roads will become more and more familiar.

3 comments:

Lemuel said...

Here' hoping that jobs and the stars align for you two to be together!

Steve F. said...

Ah, brother - I understand. And I know the long-distance relationship thing seems like a big deal to you. But from where I sit, these sound like high-quality issues.

You see, I've only been "out at all" 11 months. And "out" less than 9. And I have nobody. Not during the week, not on the weekends. Oh, I've got friends - even some "out" friends. But not a "special somebody."

It's a good thing I don't drink - I could easily be in a bar, peeling labels off beer bottles and singing poor me songs like "another Saturday night and I ain't got nobody..." "I Am A Rock," "One Less Bell to Answer" and other feel-good classics...

I just have to trust that even trolls will attract other trolls if they are out enough to find 'em. And trust that if God is God (and I am not), then it's outta my hands anyway.

That envious bit aside, LD relationships can be a struggle. When I was married and traveling all the time, I kept hearing John Denver's "Goodbye Again" and "Leavin' on a Jet Plane" all the damn time.

And I cried each and every time. "It is not good for a man to be alone..." is one part of the Old Testament I can certify personally.

Journeyman said...

Steve F...

I'm right there with ya, my friend. I have many of those same thoughts, so I can honestly say you are not alone.

Hang in there the best you can; I'll try to do the same, OK?